Without a doubt 2009 has been an exceptional- and somewhat wierd- year for us… and for me. This last year of the decade saw growth and transition, professionally and personally… painful, stressful, a little scary but all-in-all, immensely rewarding and wildly encouraging.
As I look to the future, on this eve of a new year and a new decade, weeding through the goals, hopes and dreams… oh, and delusions of possibly keeping up with the laundry… I choose, as really my one resolution for 2010, a practice in surrender.
In order to accept the demands of my life (homeschooling, health, career… husband!!) I think I’m finally beginning to see, that to be my best in stepping up to any of them, I need to let go. Allow space.
I’ve a life that is, for the most part, creatively driven and if that energy is to flow there needs to be room… tranquility. Peace. Presence.
Anything else… the mental clutter- or maybe more aptly (for any yogis out there), the wild and crazy monkey-mind- in the form of worry, stress, doubt and fear, serves only to distract, impede and dam that flow.
So, on the eve of 2010, I will raise my glass to presence. To surrender.
And to knowing that if this is it, if this is as good as it gets… it’s pretty damn great!
Even with the growing mountain of laundry….
Happy New Year!
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